'm feeling a bit down lately.
I just fixed the light in my room the bulb got busted last week and so i could study at night because theres just too much distractions outside. But its alright i managed with midterms although I am still worried with my research which BTW will be passed today.
In the pass week that i have been staying in the dark without anything to keep my mind occupied, i got to thinking...
where would i be a couple of years from now? I was so scared to answer that question.
A few years ago i was so optimistic that i was ready to try everything just to prove that i can do anything i set my mind to. but that isn't what happened. Now i never seem to see the silver lining in the things(most of the time terrible) that has happened to me. i have made wrong decisions after wrong decisions and i cant seem to stop.
I know that my parents wants the best for me. they are until now doing their best just to get me trough the best school in our town but all I'm doing is wasting their money.
i want everything to be alright in the end. i want to be able have a good future, i want to be the best that i can be.
But i do not know how to start.
